To the new Mummy-me,
So the bump and belly have gone leaving behind a few stretch marks.
The little jumping bean is no longer saying “hello” from the inside – he is here. This new little person is now relying on me for everything.
It is overwhelming and amazing! Every day is a new learning curve and it is incredibly refreshing to realise that things really can be put off until tomorrow. The old pre-mummy me would never have thought that possible.
It is lovely to just sit and chill with this warm snuggly radiator on my chest.
Dougie is such a miracle – I never thought I could be so lucky! And I feel so proud to have given Mark and I a little boy.
I can see how natural this all is and that it is meant to be – the “mummy instinct” is overwhelming and I feel as though I have already learnt so much about myself.
However I am so worried about doing the right thing, particularly in regards to Dougie sleeping safely, as I am anxious about something going wrong. I imagine all new mummies feel like this though. I just want to keep him super safe in my arms. The world suddenly seems like a more frightening place now I have the most precious being to take care of.
It is so hard to know what to do about routine etc but I think we need to go with Dougie at least initially as a newborn until there is more structure to his feeding. That may be right, that may be wrong but our new little team can learn together!
I am the proudest Mummy to be able to hold you, my beautiful boy, in my arms. I am mesmerised by you and wish that I never had to put you down – cuddles are the best. I love you so much it actually takes my breath away. I cannot believe how lucky we are and I can’t wait to see you grown into a happy and healthy little boy.
Daddy and I promise that we will do everything we can to keep a wonderful smile on your face. We will have so many adventures together as a family. We can’t wait to share all of our new experiences with you. There are so many wonderful family and friends, who care about you and are excited to see you grow into a boy and a man.
Thank you for making my life complete. You are so small but hold such a big place in my heart already.
I hope you forgive Mummy if I don’t always have the answers right away. Daddy and I are learning on the job, so sometimes don’t quite get it right (lots of leaking nappies spring to mind…!)
I love you very much Dougie and always will xx
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